Right now i really don't know how to feel or what to think... i feel like im saying and doing everything wrong that i keep messing up and that i'm walking on thin line...
take last night for example was telling my boss something and didnt want her to go blab it to somebody (kind of complicated on who you are but you probably know who you are just don't wanna say your name) i said if she told i quit she's like that's fine i can just put the baby in day care and switch my hours... so after that it has made me feel like im big bother to them and they really don't want me around.
I know i do alot things wrong i make big mess and bad things happen i try my best to fix it but it seems like its never good enough...
i was in such a great mood last week then yesterday came and my whole mood did 360... i feel like just bursting out in tears or hitting a wall ( can't do that because they are cement walls) but i feel so down inside and i have nobody to turn to talk too....
can't something for once go right for me or sign to show that everything okay... am i really trying my best or am i just making small portion....
on another down note..... i feel like im the most annoying person in the world towards one person right now. all im trying to do is get to know you more and be your friend.. i understand you don't want to date anybody but i just want to get to know you.. sorry if i keep asking you weird questions or sending you texts like i said i just want to get to know you more if you read this post hope you understand all i ask for is chance to be your friend....
okay im done ranting and raving i have to get ready for time to put on fake smile and hide my emotions yet again happy Monday to me............
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